Blast from the past, est. 07 :)

I've had this song, "Far Far" by Yael Naim, stuck in my head all day:

Far far, there's this little girl
She was praying for something to happen to her
Everyday she writes words and more words
Just to speak out the thoughts that keep floating inside
And she's strong when the dreams come cos' they
Take her, cover her, they are all over
The reality looks far now, but don't go

How can you stay outside?
There's a beautiful mess inside
How can you stay outside?
There's a beautiful mess inside
Oh oh oh oh

Far far, there's this little girl
She was praying for something good to happen to her
From time to time there're colors and shapes
Dazzling her eyes, tickling her hands
They invent her a new world with
Oil skies and aquarel rivers
But don't you run away already
Please don't go oh oh

How can you stay outside?
There's a beautiful mess inside
How an you stay outside?
There's a beautiful mess inside
Take a deep breath and dive
There's a beautiful mess inside
How can you stay outside?
There's a beautiful mess
Beautiful mess inside

Oh beautiful, beautiful

Far far there's this little girl
She was praying for something big to happen to her
Every night she ears beautiful strange music
It's everywhere there's nowhere to hide
But if it fades she begs
"Oh lord don't take it from me, don't take it yourselves"

I guess i'll have to give it birth
To give it birth
I guess, i guess, i guess i have to give it birth
I guess i have to, have to give it birth
There's a beautiful mess inside and it's everywhere

So shake it yourself now deep inside
Deeper than you ever dared
Deeper than you ever dared
There's a beautiful mess inside
Beautiful mess inside

I wish...

My mind is constantly spinning, I can't stop thinking, but I can't seem to put the words into any context. I know the emotions and the feelings and the words are there inside of me...they're just not ready to be spit out of my fingers and into cyberspace yet. It's like writers block, but I already know what I want to write. I'm just not ready to and I really wish I was.

It's a mix of hope, fear and the unknown...and I think it's going to stay inside for a bit longer.

Wow

Loving life right now! Finally figuring out what I'm going to do next year for school - at least for my living situation :]
Two nights ago proved to me that I am done dealing with shit from other people. I know I deserve better, and I should just stop putting myself in situations that make me so damn frustrated. But, it was an overall great birthday (minus the 10 minutes of frustration).
BUT, last night was awesome and super chill. Just hung out with Rachel & Kelsey in their room with some of the guys from their floor. It was fun, got to meet like ten new people (always good). Watched FAR TOO MUCH YouTube and then a movie.
Today was a short day, finished my essay last night so I don't have to do it today :] Wooo! Now I'm just relaxing and trying to get ahead in reading! God knows I need to...that damn murder text book is soooo boring.

I don't really have much to update on...besides I'm for sure making a trip to "that other school" in Pullman at some point in February. Kelsey wants to visit Leander and Rachel wants to go too. It will be a road trip to see my best friends with some of my favorite UW girls! :]

(365) days of megan

After 365 days of being eighteen, I've come to terms with the fact it's not THAT amazing of an age. But, let's recap the year, in chronological order:
-Turned 18, woke up to flowers on the porch, had school, bought a lotto ticket and swishers (rebellious, I know), worked (why didn't I request it off?) and went and saw Slumdog Millionaire. Why do I remember that day like it was yesterday?!?
-Became addicted to yoga and the sauna at the YMCA
-Committed to attending the University of Washington
-Became the "office bitch" at Stortini's...thank God they still appreciate me :)
-Had multiple breakdowns in the back office of JagWire...not gonna lie, I'm glad that part of my life is done
-Worked my ass off on the track and competed (as an individual, finally!) at the state meet
-Became single, and happy!
-Went to Senior Ball with my best friend
-Graduated in the Top 10 from Emerald Ridge High School
-Reconciled relationships with old friends that are now best friends
-Got a puppy, Izzy. The love of my life, hehe <3
-Had the best week of my life house sitting for the Mehrer family
-Spent hours upon hours at/on Lake Tapps & Hot Chick with Dallas and Chanel
-Discovered Sushi Town, thanks to Cody Rain-nice, and Trapper/Mt.Rainier
-Had a night I'll never forget
-Went on multiple adventures with Chanel
-Got hooked on Dexter and True Blood
-Said goodbye to three of my best friends as they went off to Pullman and California
-Doubted my choice of attending UW
-Beat USC football, and no longer doubted my decision
-Moved to Seattle
-Best friend Chanel moved to Montana :(
-Reconnected with a junior high friend, who's now my best friend
-Partied too hard the night before Halloween, went home to pass out candy for actual Halloween
-Made a few poor decisions
-Had my first Thanksgiving at home without the entire extended family
-Fell in love with Husky Basketball...seriously, one of my favorite things ever!!
-Finished my first quarter of college with a 3.83 GPA :)
-Saw White Christmas the musical and loved it
-Acted like a child and went trampoline-ing
-Didn't have an actual White Christmas
-Had a strange New Years Eve, but spent it with the best friend and in the most relaxing sort of way + champagne
-Came back to school, started new classes
-Started a new workout regiment that I'm going to stick to :)
-Parents came up for an early birthday dinner at The Melting Pot...so freakin' delicious!!

Wow, what a year...and all in bullet points :] It's kind of fun to look back, but I'm all about looking forward lately :)

No exceptions

The workout plan begins tomorrow. No doubt about it. I've been doing horrible since I've been back from winter break...and Rachel and I are getting down to it - starting up our running workouts tomorrow! Super excited because I've been looking for a running buddy for the longest time now! :] Yippeeeeee!