A moment to breathe

Phew! This has been an exhausting week...
I'm starting my new job today - in fact, I'm here now but it's a "settling in" week, so I don't have much to do! It's kind of great to just sit here and breathe for a bit. I've needed this break today.
I have to vent for a moment: last night sucked. I don't think I've ever been this torn about something before. And it's not a feeling I enjoy much. It's like I have everything I've wanted for so long - and then timing comes into the picture and decides to be a bitch.
Don't get me wrong, though. I really am happy...just simultaneously confused.