I'm tired of feeling like this.

going to uw for orientation...

and i never wanna come back.

this week has been crazy with my parents. cannot wait for september - it honestly could not come fast enough for me.

next week i'm house-sitting for chanel & her parentals :] woooo, should be fun because her puppies and kitties are so damn cute. hahah

i surprised myself

I never thought that I would get emotional about somebody I never knew, somebody I never met. I never expected myself to be sitting at my computer reading things that were making me just cry tears of complete and utter helplessness. I wasn't expecting sad text messages explaining what it's like to lose a friend.

If there's anything I've learned in the past twenty four hours from somebody I didn't expect to teach me things like this, it's to live life. Every single minute of it. I've learned that telling my friends, especially my best friends, how much they mean to me is crucial.

My heart goes out to everybody that has lost a friend...but I hope I never have to go through what you have.

I never expected to feel like this.

today could have been perfect

I woke up in a complete fog - exhausted from only 5.5 hours of sleep (go me!) - and rolled out of bed to help cook dad's day breakfast. I had six texts, all of which made me smile. Then, breakfast was delicious.
Went to lunch with amazing people, and then to this one boy's house (who will remain nameless for the time being). Which was also amazing. We watched Taken, which is quite the entertaining movie and played Halo, which I officially suck at.
Then I went to work, which was a bit boring, yet at the same time nice because it was moderately slow and my best friends were there!
Came home, continued my fantastic day with a bowl of fruit salad and a movie.
THEN...I get a looming text message. One that didn't make me smile. And now I'm bummed.
This is lameee :[

yayy!

i love friends. and having options.
and not being sad about stupid, stupid douchey boys :]

I would enjoy taking a break from my current life.

This break would include:
-Napping all day long
-Talking to a few select people
-Drinking iced tea
-Wearing cute sunglasses and sundresses
-Having cute boys wandering around with palm leaves to cool me off

THE END.

Just pretend you do...

I feel like you don't give a shit - and maybe you don't. And if that's the case...fake it for goodness sakes.
You're supposed to be my rock, my supporter, etc. And when you don't care at all - it really just makes me want to crumble into a ball and die. Because of all people, I'd expect that you'd be the one to stick by me and tell me that everything's going to be alright. YOU should be the one that's there.
I love you no matter what, but it's things like this that make me sad.

We're done. We did it.
I'm exhausted. I'm excited. I'm scared. I'm joyous. But most of all, I'm proud - of all of us.
Class of '09, congratulations!

It's really over...

I feel like I haven't posted in forever. Probably because I haven't.
But I'm unbelievably stoked right now...because I will never sit in a high school classroom again :]
Last day of school means hellooooo summer!!!!!
Here's the plan for the next few days...

Tonight: Senior sunset (our last hooray! as a class - outside of formal stuff)
Sleepover with the friends

Tomorrow: Practice graduation at the fair

Saturday: Graduation & Grad. Party!

Sunday: Grad. party hoppin'.

Tuesday-Thursday: PORTLAND with best friend :]

IT'S REALLY OVER!!!!