On winning, losing and calling it quits

On winning: UW fought through. We beat the No. 3 team in the nation - USC - and I will forever remember the feeling of stumbling/storming the field holding onto my best friend. I won't be able to forget the moment where Alex & I looked at each other (after jumping up and down hugging and screaming, of course) and said "What the fuck!! We are going to beat USC!" It was incredible. I feel so gracious to be a part of a community/school/city where it doesn't matter how many times you leave a game frustrated you still come back to the stadium the following week. Tailgates are amazing (x2348972) and the entire atmosphere of standing in Husky Stadium on gameday is ridiculously awesome. "GO!!" ... "HUSKIES!"

On losing: My house, my yellow walls, my closet, Izzy, family dinners. You will all be a part of my past in four days when I move to Seattle. Although you will not be lost forever, you will be greatly missed. There's something exciting about living on my own and in my favorite city, yet there is something equally terrifying. The fear of the unknown. And the fear of not having my daddy there to kill spiders in my room is quiet unnerving, also. Nevertheless, I shall embrace the change and I'm sure I'll love it so much that I never want to come back to Puyallup.

On calling it quits: There's no point in "us" anymore, and it breaks my heart. But I don't know what to say or do anymore. The truth is - I am starting a new point in my life in a few days. I was informed last night that I will do the most changing I've ever done in the first few months of freshman year, and I do not doubt that one bit. I'm not worried about you, I'm worried about me (as cliche and dumb as it is to say that). I'm not a fan of quitting, but in this case, I think it would be best if I just stop trying and see what happens from there.

But, I'm not quite sure....about any of this. I would really love for something to jump out at me and be an obvious sign - but I'm pretty sure that's not gonna happen.

Or...it just did. The phone rang!